Delusions of Domestic Goddess status

Seasons of Love

I am having a little bit of a low moment.

I ran into the kitchen of my house tonight fully expecting to see Ben there... I guess my mind had decided to play tricks on me. I ran in, acting like a fool, with a big smile on my face wanting to be spun around and to share my laughter with someone.

Instead, I raced in there and stopped. I was confused for a moment. My face fell. And then it hit me and I missed him so much I wasn't sure whether my heart would burst with the emotion of it. My heart just sank. So I came upstairs and cried. But what really struck me was how long it has been since I felt as excited as I did when I momentarily thought I was rushing into the room to share a joke with my best friend.