One of my teachers at school once observed that the reason I was confident to put my hand up to answer a question, but that I had no confidence in trying to act in drama was because of my complete fear of failure.
I suppose part of it is pride. Some kind of hideous self-adoration that makes me want to look good in the eyes of other people. But part of it is just because of how inadequate I feel about most things.
I am taking a gap year this year, due to a failed module at medical school which I have to externally retake. Second year, for me, will start in 2010.
