Maybe I'm in denial... but...

These lyrics seem to be speaking to me today:

"I should be out in that driveway stopping you

Tears should be rolling down my cheek

And I don't know why I'm not falling apart

Like I usually do

And how the thought of losing you's not killing me

I feel bad

That I can stand here strong

Cold as stone, Seems so wrong

I can't explain it

Maybe it's just

I've cried so much

I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it

I feel bad that I don't feel bad

Dawning Realisation...

I feel like today has been a very strange day in terms of my emotions. I feel like I may have been walking around in the dark for quite some time, actually, but light is starting to appear and I feel like tonight I've stopped being paralysed emotionally and have taken more than just a tentative step in a certain direction.

Book of Mormon

Wedding!

Today I got the opportunity to attend the wedding of a friend of my sister and I. It has to be said that I am not the biggest fan of weddings. They tend to overwhelm me... I don't know what it is about them...

but, anyway, it was a lovely wedding.

Do you know- I have observed that weddings never go completely smoothly. But the main thing is that at the end of the day, the atmosphere is set by the love that is evident. So, I guess my favourite parts of a wedding are the bits that others might find slightly cringe-worthy... the outward affection... the way the groom's voice cracks up when he tries to express how much the bride means to him... the little looks... the smiles... the obvious joy in each other's joy. That is truly memorable.